Complete Chaos! aka Hypothyroidism

Have you ever felt like your life was a total mess? That's how I have been feeling lately. My mind is everywhere. I have so much I feel like I need to get done. Isabella is starting her first year in school (prek3), I am starting my Masters, our closets need to be cleaned out a bit... the list goes on, and on, and on.

Sometimes I feel like it's not my life. It's just my condition. I have hypothyroidism and I believe it has brought on many problems aside from my thyroid levels being out of whack!

1. My mind is a mess. I am totally lost half the time. I ask my husband the same question 50 times. I forget almost everything. His reply is "Really babe? You asked me that like 3 times!"
2. I eat and I eat. I get hungry. I feel like im starving. I eat some more. I wake up at 2am and 4am hungry scavenging for food (like a racoon digging through a garbage can).
3. I get anxiety. Lots of it. Lots of palpitations. It's horrible.
4. Headaches
5. Tired. All of the time. I mean sheesh I am a mom of 3 but take that tiredness and multiply it times a gatrillion and that's how I feel. Borderline dead. At the same time I have insomnia sometimes. My body is confused just as much as I am!
6. Depression. Yep it happens. Sometimes I cry for no reason. Sometimes for a good reason. The point is I cry.
7. Irritability. Yes I get angry. Very angry. For no reason. Or maybe there is a reason but it's a stupid reason.
8. My hair just falls out... A lot. I even think my eyebrows are thinning? Not sure.

It is not easy living with hypothyroidism. I am taking medications but I personally feel that either they are not working or HOLY CRAP THIS SUCKS! I feel like I am slowly dying just to sum things up. I feel like I am losing control of my life and I don't know how to gain control back. I have tried "googling" stuff but I just haven't been able to find anything that would help. My next appointment isn't until October to check out my levels. I feel so crazy to the point that I googled up psychiatrists in my area LOL!!! I really feel like a crazy person!

Anyways. Today has been highly unproductive. We have laid in bed, watched T.V, baked cookies, ordered pizza (Isabella's favorite), I washed dishes, bottles... changed diapers, gave baths LOL... the typical mom list goes on. I just feel so drained half of the time. It really sucks.

Well here is some humour!!