Online shopping aka My worst enemy

Ugh! Help! I have been online shopping so much lately. In between buying stuff for the house, and buying rain boots for the girls, I just keep clicking and clicking and clicking... and well by now, I have about 5 packages on the way.

This is some of the stuff I have purchased for the kids and I cannot wait til' it ships. I am mostly excited for those leggings and the pink rain boots! I also purchased some shorts for baby Lucas (as well as the joggers pictured).

You can purchase these items here: Old Navy and Gap

HAPPY SHOPPING!

Happy Sabado!

Our summer has been pretty boring. We have been stuck indoors most of the time... I cannot wait to move to the house to have the kiddos run around like... well.. KIDDOS.. haha! We don't have a pool at the house but when I used to coupon I ended up buying one of those inflatable pools and well the kids will get a kick out of that. Kids are amazing, they are content with anything, and the small things make them happy. Too bad adults don't feel the same way. We are cranky and ask for too much.

On Wednesday night we left to Clearwater. We left at around 9-10pm in hopes that we would wake up early to enjoy a sunny day at the beach. Well that didn't work out. It rained the whole day on Thursday. Our stay at the beachfront Hilton was a total FAIL. We ended up ordering room service breakfast ... waited for the rain to stop, and that never happened.

We ended up going to a children's museum in Tampa and we had fun! It is pretty big compared to the one in Lakeland (which is closer to us). This one is 3 floors. The kids enjoyed themselves. Afterwards we just drove home (1 hr drive) and picked up some ice cream. Our beach planned = ruined but the kids were still thankful (see what I mean?). I barely got any pics. You can catch me walking around with a video camera now a days... and I mean it takes pictures but the quality is pretty shitty.

1. The kids could dance and watch themselves on the big screen. It was pretty awesome. You could choose what kind of music you wanted to dance to: hip hop, country, latin and so on. There were awesome disco lights as well. Kids had a blast. That's daddy holding Lucas. You can't see Isa, but Juli is the one in the front.

 

2. Daddy threw on a construction worker outfit on Lucas. The goggles did not last very long.

 

We have a HOME!

So excited to say I am a HOMEOWNER! We closed in June. I am as happy as I am exhausted.

We are re-doing the whole house. Painting, putting tile in,laminate floors, new bathroom fixtures (at least for the guest bathroom), new kitchen counters, we need appliances, new couches... the list goes on... and on... and on.

It is so hard to get much done with the 3 kiddies. Every time I go to the house to do something Lucas cries to be carried. When I go to Lowes, the kids fight over who gets to ride in the shopping cart that looks like a car. They fight over who gets to "drive the car". Sometimes I just put Lucas in the cart and let the girls walk, which then turns into complete chaos. The girls run around the whole store chasing each other, opening doors, touching EVERYTHING.. you know being kids. Meanwhile, I am rushing to get out of there as soon as possible. My stress level goes through the roof when this happens and I try to remain as calm as possible, which let's face it, it is not easy.

Anxiety is getting the best of me. Our lease is up July 31st and there is still a lot of work to be done at the house. I look forward to finally moving in after all the work we have put, and still have to put in. The house is coming out beautifully. I can't wait til' the kids can each have their own rooms, run in the backyard, and I can lay in my big garden tub!

1) What the house currently looks like (yes we tore down a wall)

2) The girls after HIp-Hop class at Lowes w/ mommy and daddy (Lucas is probably running around in the aisle, Juli looks blurry because she can't stay still for more than 2 seconds)

It is almost summer...

Yayyy!!! So I finished my Spring semester =-]

I am sooo happy. No more late nights on the computer... now I can simply watch T.V or just go to bed. I passed both classes with an A and a B which is great!

Now it is just time to wait for us to go on summer vacation from work and Isa from school and let the fun begin!!!

We are still in the process of buying a house. Things haven't been working out as planned but everything is always in God's hands. I still need a vacation but refuse to spend any major money until this nightmare is over with.

Today the kids played with finger paint, the girls are playing dress up with make up and all. They are having so much fun! I hate being stuck indoors but I love their company.

Back to work tomorrow. Can I make it to work early for once? ... No matter how hard I try it just never works out for me.

Mentally exhausted

I never knew it was possible to be mentally exhausted. How do you disconnect from the chaor and stop thinking about it? Is it even possible?

I am on break and a million things run through my mind each day: did I forget to pay a bill? Am I going to be able to find the right home? How much can we really afford? Do I want a pool? Grading has to be done when I get back to work. Isabella has to be picked up early today. My husband didn't clean the kitchen as he promised. I need a vacation. I need to go do groceries. I have so much laundry to take care of. Why am I getting my masters? Check my e-mail. Check it again. And again. Check the MLS website for new homes. Is it lunch time? Is it bedtime? Did I do Isabella's homework? I have to go register her for VPK. Is everything set at her school though? Where is my phone? I can't find my phone. Do I really have to go anywhere today? My nails need to be done. My eyebrows too. The kids closet is a mess. I'll do it tomorrow. Tomorrow... becomes tomorrow again. I have to go see my specialist. I'll make the appointment tomorrow... tomorrow becomes tomorrow as well and it never gets done.

I am mentally drained. I don't know how to deal with all the madness. I have tried planners. 1 planner becomes 2 and then the 2 are forgotten.

I love my kids and I need sanity. I need a vacation but would rather not do one until after the house. I just find myself making difficult choices that are not even difficult. My mind just makes them so.

Spring break has been depressing

What a shitty day. Let's start with the rain... BLAH.
Then Lucas pooped on the carpet fresh out of the shower. FUN! What's worse is that my scream "Lucas!" scared him and he ended up stepping on it (grr).

I am having the carpet cleaners come this week any ways to get my carpet cleaned. 

I left the house early to go pick up Isabella from school and stopped at Target. Ended up spending $175... I was supposed to just go in for bathing suits. I ended up with swimsuits for all 3 kids, cover-ups for the beach, a beach shirt for Lucas, 3 black shirts and a cute yellow necklace.

I literally have no clothes. Thanks to having hypothyroidism, I have put on 20 something lbs. and nothing fits any more.
Target and shopping were the least of my worries today.

HOUSE HUNTING was hell. My head hurts from all the math and trying to figure out my monthly payments. Why is it so hard to find a house?

Today I also felt like shit because I realized how much I miss being home. I don't want to work any more. I just want to be home with my kids. Today was perfect. Julianna slept on me, Lucas slept on me. Just writing this, I feel like crying. Why did I start work in the first place? I still have 3 babies and they need me to be with them. Is it weird that I feel that way? I really don't want to sound like a mom that doesn't want to let go... but really how can you just let go of babies? I don't get it. My way of parenting is very different from my friends. I just want to stay home... if only I could find a cheap house and convince my husband that I need to not work.. .
Oh but of course shopping is fun. But still kids first. Always. But who do I shop for? My kids. Life. The struggle.

All three kids had a doctor's appointment today. Julianna is all set for school, we just have to turn in paperwork tomorrow. Isabella and Lucas both had to get shots and it was not fun. Isabella was screaming like someone was killing her and she was kicking everyone and ended up kicking my poor Juli on the head. Isa got 3 shots. Lucas got 2. Juli just got her iron checked, but she considered it a shot since she got poked and she said "Mommy I didn't cry. I am a big girl" uhhh she melts me!

1. Lucas cuddling me at the doctor's office
2. Juli's #OOTD
3. Juli fresh out the shower
4. Juli posing. I love her boots. She has such cute skinny legs. I'm obsessed with her.
Isa was at school. So no pics of her =[ poopie!

 

Spring Break

Yay! I am so excited because my break has officially started! This means I can stay up all night today (jk).

I don't go back to work until 3/30 and that day is a teacher workday, student holiday... so quiet time for me.

I have so many things planned with the kiddos. I went over to my parents' house and they ended up in the pool. We are hoping to go to the beach this weekend and I cannot wait. I love the beach... and my legs need a good tan. They are so pale =[

I went to WalMart this morning with princess Julianna. I bought groceries, some new cups and plates for the kids, a new skillet (I love it!), and I got myself a book. Nothing lengthy or fancy that I won't be able to finish... but something short and sweet. I got my hands on: "You can, You will" by Joel Osteen. I got the Journal version. They split everything for a total of 24 days. The point is for you to read the book and reflect on the scripture and lesson given. It also provides questions for you to reflect deeper and space for you to jot down your thoughts. I love Joel Osteen. His life messages are great.

I need to get my hands on a good book though. I just need something that will really grab my attention. Having 3 kids and working keeps me busy enough so I need something that will make me read it.
This is Lucas yesterday eating pizza poolside.

 

This is the book:

 

I never thought...

I never thought buying a house would be so stressful.

We have been looking for almost a month and there is absolutely nothing that I am totally in LOVE with or at my budget.

My plan was to find  a 4 bedroom house with no pool (because of kids, scared of an accident) and with a big enough backyard for them to play.

Things have changed. I am at the point where a 3 bedroom can work, I prefer to have a pool (I live in FL), and it has to have a backyard as well.

My budget keeps changing because truthfully what I want is hard to get in the area that I am looking into. My thing is, I don't want to work to pay a house. I want low payments and I want to travel. That's that.

Today is my first day of Spring Break. I have so many things I need to get done at home. I don't even know where to begin. Towards the end of next week, I plan to head out to the beach with the kiddos and hubby. I cannot wait!

In the meantime here's a picture of Juli and her beautiful curls!  I will keep looking for a house....

Epiphany

I don't know why but recently I had an epiphany.

Well I have finally realized that social media (Instagram, Facebook) is just such a waste of precious time. I really don't know how I came to realize it but I did. You can catch me scrolling through it if I find myself to be extremely bored... every 4 days or so. I hardly ever post any more. Am I getting old? Or what?

I am fascinated with my kids. They are all growing up and life is just getting fun. We can do so many things now. Lucas is still small (he's only 1.4) but the fact that he can walk and he's exploring the world means my arm is not in terrible pain because it feels like it is about fall off. I can sit back now and watch my kids laugh and play... and I just find myself taking it all in. No more taking pictures to upload them to instagram. Why? No one gives a s*** anyways.
 Seriously. No one does.

For the past 3 years I have been trying to catch up with getting pictures printed and put into albums but something always comes up and it just never gets done. I have a huge phobia of losing track of all the pictures and losing them and then I will have no memories of my kids being tiny. It is really a scary thought.

Next week, the girls have "videotaping week" at the dance studio. They have a recital coming up in June and this is the time for moms to come in an videotape so we can practice at home. I suddenly realized... I don't have a video camera. Does that make a difference any more? Is recording with a video camera the same as recording with your regular camera? Life is hard.

Maybe I can figure out how to throw a clip of their dance moves on here. In the meantime, I need to figure out what type of camcorder I can get my hands on.

Happy Sunday!

Happy 2015

11 days later and well...
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

We started off the year kind of rough. Isabella got the flu, then I ended up getting it. Luckily no one else got it. The little ones do have a cold though. Seems like we will never be cooties free.

So far I have learned that having 3 kids and having the FLU is probably the craziest thing that can happen. Staying away from the kids is nearly impossible. Having the kids stay away from each other is worse. Thank God for those face masks I stole from the hospital (I asked for them).

Next weekend is Martin Luther King weekend. Which means no work or school for Isa. I am trying to plan a staycation at a Disney hotel but it seems like they are booked. At least the one I want to stay at is booked. The Animal Kingdom Lodge I heard is ah-mazing!!! The stay looks like it goes from 350 and up at this point a night. I really want to try it out but it is so pricey! I am still shopping around for a room. Who knows.

I just want to get out as a family and do something. It is hard deciding where to go. My husband wants to go to St. Augustine but we went there when Isa was 4 months old and I mean we pretty much did everything in one day. There is really not much fun stuff to do. It is more of a sight-seeing trip.

I'll leave this one with a picture of my girls. The baby was sleeping. Happy Sunday!