Spring break has been depressing

What a shitty day. Let's start with the rain... BLAH.
Then Lucas pooped on the carpet fresh out of the shower. FUN! What's worse is that my scream "Lucas!" scared him and he ended up stepping on it (grr).

I am having the carpet cleaners come this week any ways to get my carpet cleaned. 

I left the house early to go pick up Isabella from school and stopped at Target. Ended up spending $175... I was supposed to just go in for bathing suits. I ended up with swimsuits for all 3 kids, cover-ups for the beach, a beach shirt for Lucas, 3 black shirts and a cute yellow necklace.

I literally have no clothes. Thanks to having hypothyroidism, I have put on 20 something lbs. and nothing fits any more.
Target and shopping were the least of my worries today.

HOUSE HUNTING was hell. My head hurts from all the math and trying to figure out my monthly payments. Why is it so hard to find a house?

Today I also felt like shit because I realized how much I miss being home. I don't want to work any more. I just want to be home with my kids. Today was perfect. Julianna slept on me, Lucas slept on me. Just writing this, I feel like crying. Why did I start work in the first place? I still have 3 babies and they need me to be with them. Is it weird that I feel that way? I really don't want to sound like a mom that doesn't want to let go... but really how can you just let go of babies? I don't get it. My way of parenting is very different from my friends. I just want to stay home... if only I could find a cheap house and convince my husband that I need to not work.. .
Oh but of course shopping is fun. But still kids first. Always. But who do I shop for? My kids. Life. The struggle.

All three kids had a doctor's appointment today. Julianna is all set for school, we just have to turn in paperwork tomorrow. Isabella and Lucas both had to get shots and it was not fun. Isabella was screaming like someone was killing her and she was kicking everyone and ended up kicking my poor Juli on the head. Isa got 3 shots. Lucas got 2. Juli just got her iron checked, but she considered it a shot since she got poked and she said "Mommy I didn't cry. I am a big girl" uhhh she melts me!

1. Lucas cuddling me at the doctor's office
2. Juli's #OOTD
3. Juli fresh out the shower
4. Juli posing. I love her boots. She has such cute skinny legs. I'm obsessed with her.
Isa was at school. So no pics of her =[ poopie!