Spring break has been depressing

What a shitty day. Let's start with the rain... BLAH.
Then Lucas pooped on the carpet fresh out of the shower. FUN! What's worse is that my scream "Lucas!" scared him and he ended up stepping on it (grr).

I am having the carpet cleaners come this week any ways to get my carpet cleaned. 

I left the house early to go pick up Isabella from school and stopped at Target. Ended up spending $175... I was supposed to just go in for bathing suits. I ended up with swimsuits for all 3 kids, cover-ups for the beach, a beach shirt for Lucas, 3 black shirts and a cute yellow necklace.

I literally have no clothes. Thanks to having hypothyroidism, I have put on 20 something lbs. and nothing fits any more.
Target and shopping were the least of my worries today.

HOUSE HUNTING was hell. My head hurts from all the math and trying to figure out my monthly payments. Why is it so hard to find a house?

Today I also felt like shit because I realized how much I miss being home. I don't want to work any more. I just want to be home with my kids. Today was perfect. Julianna slept on me, Lucas slept on me. Just writing this, I feel like crying. Why did I start work in the first place? I still have 3 babies and they need me to be with them. Is it weird that I feel that way? I really don't want to sound like a mom that doesn't want to let go... but really how can you just let go of babies? I don't get it. My way of parenting is very different from my friends. I just want to stay home... if only I could find a cheap house and convince my husband that I need to not work.. .
Oh but of course shopping is fun. But still kids first. Always. But who do I shop for? My kids. Life. The struggle.

All three kids had a doctor's appointment today. Julianna is all set for school, we just have to turn in paperwork tomorrow. Isabella and Lucas both had to get shots and it was not fun. Isabella was screaming like someone was killing her and she was kicking everyone and ended up kicking my poor Juli on the head. Isa got 3 shots. Lucas got 2. Juli just got her iron checked, but she considered it a shot since she got poked and she said "Mommy I didn't cry. I am a big girl" uhhh she melts me!

1. Lucas cuddling me at the doctor's office
2. Juli's #OOTD
3. Juli fresh out the shower
4. Juli posing. I love her boots. She has such cute skinny legs. I'm obsessed with her.
Isa was at school. So no pics of her =[ poopie!

 

Spring Break

Yay! I am so excited because my break has officially started! This means I can stay up all night today (jk).

I don't go back to work until 3/30 and that day is a teacher workday, student holiday... so quiet time for me.

I have so many things planned with the kiddos. I went over to my parents' house and they ended up in the pool. We are hoping to go to the beach this weekend and I cannot wait. I love the beach... and my legs need a good tan. They are so pale =[

I went to WalMart this morning with princess Julianna. I bought groceries, some new cups and plates for the kids, a new skillet (I love it!), and I got myself a book. Nothing lengthy or fancy that I won't be able to finish... but something short and sweet. I got my hands on: "You can, You will" by Joel Osteen. I got the Journal version. They split everything for a total of 24 days. The point is for you to read the book and reflect on the scripture and lesson given. It also provides questions for you to reflect deeper and space for you to jot down your thoughts. I love Joel Osteen. His life messages are great.

I need to get my hands on a good book though. I just need something that will really grab my attention. Having 3 kids and working keeps me busy enough so I need something that will make me read it.
This is Lucas yesterday eating pizza poolside.

 

This is the book:

 

I never thought...

I never thought buying a house would be so stressful.

We have been looking for almost a month and there is absolutely nothing that I am totally in LOVE with or at my budget.

My plan was to find  a 4 bedroom house with no pool (because of kids, scared of an accident) and with a big enough backyard for them to play.

Things have changed. I am at the point where a 3 bedroom can work, I prefer to have a pool (I live in FL), and it has to have a backyard as well.

My budget keeps changing because truthfully what I want is hard to get in the area that I am looking into. My thing is, I don't want to work to pay a house. I want low payments and I want to travel. That's that.

Today is my first day of Spring Break. I have so many things I need to get done at home. I don't even know where to begin. Towards the end of next week, I plan to head out to the beach with the kiddos and hubby. I cannot wait!

In the meantime here's a picture of Juli and her beautiful curls!  I will keep looking for a house....

Epiphany

I don't know why but recently I had an epiphany.

Well I have finally realized that social media (Instagram, Facebook) is just such a waste of precious time. I really don't know how I came to realize it but I did. You can catch me scrolling through it if I find myself to be extremely bored... every 4 days or so. I hardly ever post any more. Am I getting old? Or what?

I am fascinated with my kids. They are all growing up and life is just getting fun. We can do so many things now. Lucas is still small (he's only 1.4) but the fact that he can walk and he's exploring the world means my arm is not in terrible pain because it feels like it is about fall off. I can sit back now and watch my kids laugh and play... and I just find myself taking it all in. No more taking pictures to upload them to instagram. Why? No one gives a s*** anyways.
 Seriously. No one does.

For the past 3 years I have been trying to catch up with getting pictures printed and put into albums but something always comes up and it just never gets done. I have a huge phobia of losing track of all the pictures and losing them and then I will have no memories of my kids being tiny. It is really a scary thought.

Next week, the girls have "videotaping week" at the dance studio. They have a recital coming up in June and this is the time for moms to come in an videotape so we can practice at home. I suddenly realized... I don't have a video camera. Does that make a difference any more? Is recording with a video camera the same as recording with your regular camera? Life is hard.

Maybe I can figure out how to throw a clip of their dance moves on here. In the meantime, I need to figure out what type of camcorder I can get my hands on.

Happy Sunday!

Happy 2015

11 days later and well...
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

We started off the year kind of rough. Isabella got the flu, then I ended up getting it. Luckily no one else got it. The little ones do have a cold though. Seems like we will never be cooties free.

So far I have learned that having 3 kids and having the FLU is probably the craziest thing that can happen. Staying away from the kids is nearly impossible. Having the kids stay away from each other is worse. Thank God for those face masks I stole from the hospital (I asked for them).

Next weekend is Martin Luther King weekend. Which means no work or school for Isa. I am trying to plan a staycation at a Disney hotel but it seems like they are booked. At least the one I want to stay at is booked. The Animal Kingdom Lodge I heard is ah-mazing!!! The stay looks like it goes from 350 and up at this point a night. I really want to try it out but it is so pricey! I am still shopping around for a room. Who knows.

I just want to get out as a family and do something. It is hard deciding where to go. My husband wants to go to St. Augustine but we went there when Isa was 4 months old and I mean we pretty much did everything in one day. There is really not much fun stuff to do. It is more of a sight-seeing trip.

I'll leave this one with a picture of my girls. The baby was sleeping. Happy Sunday!

Freaking out

Well tomorrow ( or should I say today?) is Isabella's first day of school. It is 1am, I have to be up at 5am and I just can't sleep.

-I have labeled her bookbag, lunchbox and so on.
-I don't even know what else to do with myself. I feel like I am forgetting something.
-I just got back from Wal-Mart ... horrible. I didn't know people wipe out the shelves because school is starting. You can tell I am new at this school thing. You and you learn.
- Her bookbag has to fit a folder. I had put a notebook and figured it was perfect. I was wrong. Folders are bigger than notebook ughhh!!!! Well I shoved the folder in there anyway LOL.
- I already labeled the bookbag with her name and teachers name so there is no returning that one.
-Being a mom is hard.
- I bought the teacher a lot of the stuff that was on her wish list. She better LOVE my daughter.
- Being a mom is hard.
-I bought apples, carrots, bread, jelly, juices, crackers, cheese... what else can I possibly get?
-Being a mom is hard.

I am pooped. Today has been mentally and physically draining.

Goodnight!

I needed some TLC

I love my kids. A lot. I love my kids a lot.

I am the type of mom who kisses her kids almost all day long. Sometimes I wonder if it annoys them... oh well.. it completes me. My husband and I are contantly showering our kids with love. We tell how cute they are, how silly they are, we kiss them, hug them... it's just PERFECT!!!

As an adult now, I don't consider myself to be too close to my brothers (there are 3 of us, I am the only girl of the bunch). I don't hug my brothers or kiss them hello. It's awkward if it even does ever happen. It doesn't even happen on birthdays... and when it does it's hugs from my younger brother who even has to state "Here is the awkward hug".

I want my kids to be different.
I want my kids to be close an feel support from each other.

I miss my brothers a lot and I wish we would have been brought up to hug each other and tell each other I love you. I never hear that from them and sometimes you just need an I love you from someone that you love. I know you really can't choose how your kids will turn out in adulthood, but I am wishing for the best from them. It's just what moms do.

On another note. I have been having a lot of issues with my thyroid like stated previously. It has been completely difficult. The most difficult part has been the mood swings. So today I went to do my hair. I. CUT. IT. ALL. OFF. Yep! I cut all my hair off. It is to my shoulders. I am a half-way blonde too HAHA! I love it. I wonder what my husband will think of it. He prefers my long hair. I really needed this change though. I finally look a bit older, like a mom. Isa's open house is on Friday so it looks mommy perfect!

I need to buy a memory card for my camera. In the meantime here is a phone picture. Of course Isabella has to make silly faces and look away. Typical child lol.